Jan 28 2009
Want to join the pity party?
After the nightmare surrounding Parker’s birth, my doctor told Jared and me to expect it to take several months before I felt better and “back to normal.” It has been almost 14 months and I am still waiting. I feel like a walking zombie 95% of the time. I hate this. I used to have so much energy and felt like “Supermom.” Now I am just “Night of the Living Dead Mom.” To top that off, my body is falling apart. I am barely 30, yet I often feel like I am at least 30 years older than that. No matter how much sleep I get, it is never enough. I thought after I stopped breastfeeding, my iron levels would go up and I would feel better. I don’t. My migraines are pretty much a constant now. And now I have this stupid torn rotator cuff. I am so tired of feeling like this. It is so depressing.
Now, anything you need to get off your chest?!
I’m with you on everything. Migraines…check. Lack of sleep…check. Body falling apart…check. I went to give Shelby some Tylenol the other day and relized just how much medicine we have in our cabinet. It looks more like the medicine CLOSET at a nursing home. We are only 26!
Oh my goodness, Aidan, I know! The kids have all their asthma and allergy stuff, their daily fluoride (they don’t fluoridate the water here), Andrew’s meds (he has so many different ones right now as we are trying to figure out the right dosages and balances between them that we need to designate a cabinet just for his stuff), stuff for fevers and all that, Parker’s prescription strength vitamins and iron, and then all my different painkillers and my Imitrex, etc. It is absurd! I feel like Grandma Young.
Is Shelby feeling better?
My problem isn’t lack of sleep, though. I get sleep usually, although I do need to go to sleep earlier than I do. Jared is a saint and now that Parker is weaned, Jared will be the one to get Parker a bottle and change his diaper if he happens to wake up during the night. He also gets the kids up in the morning and gets them ready for school. My problem is that no matter how much sleep I get, I still feel like I didn’t get any sleep at all. It is so ridiculous. I took a 3 hour nap yesterday, went to sleep before Jared did last night, and still feel like a zombie today.
You, missie, need to stop staying up all night working! I worry about you!
maybe it’s your thyroid??
I thought maybe that was it, too, but had it tested at my last OBGYN appt. and it was normal. I know I am still really anemic and I think it is also just part of having an auto-immune disorder.
Have you determined whether or not you have sleep apnea? It runs in the family.
Adrienne,
I’m sorry that you aren’t feeling well. I wish I could help! So I don’t what the nightmare was that surrounded your little guys birth. It sounds like it has affected you quite a bit. I hope things get better for you.
Heidi